`Night is my companion, and Solitude my guide. Would I spend forever
here, and not be satisfied?’ Sarah McLachlan, `Possession’

5. Solitude
By Jessica Ferroni

Sometimes being alone is a good thing.
Don’t ever let anybody tell you otherwise.

It’s better when no one can see you cry, when
nobody else gets involved in your personal pain.
Because that’s just what it is: your pain.
It’s unfair to dump that on someone else,
no matter how much they might want to help.
They don’t know what they’re getting into.

Me? The last few years of my life has been
your classic rags-to-riches story — though
I haven’t made it to the riches part yet.
Don’t get me wrong, I’ve got a lot.
In fact, I’ve got more than I probably deserve.
But that’s not what I meant.
No, I mean being able to cross the final barrier,
to tell B’Elanna how much I love her.
When I can do that, I will consider myself a
very wealthy man indeed. And if she loves
me too, I’ll have everything I will ever
want or need.

But I can’t tell her. I’m too afraid she’ll
just laugh in my face and that will be that.
She’ll go back to her life.

And I will remain
Alone. In my Solitude.

© Copyright November 1996 Jessica Ferroni (My abbreviated copyright) 🙂


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